my world, my true

It’s crazy how much changes in just one month. Lately went from being my quiet, sleepy girl to my very loud fussypants. Though she has her rare moments of looking around curiously and silently observing her big, new world, she really seems to just dislike being awake these days. 

She just prefers to be upright on Mommy’s chest (while her little digestive system figures out how to work properly), so she basically lives in the sling or Moby wrap while she’s awake. She sleeps swaddled on her side pretty well, and, she’s actually a pretty good sleeper - that’s one thing she’s stayed pretty consistent about so far (I’m sure I will be putting my foot in my mouth very soon just for saying that!). The past few nights she’s done a 6 1/2 hr stretch after I first put her down at night. She likes to tank up for the 2-3 hours before bedtime - she eats constantly (and whines and cries a lot) and then just passes out for a while.

She’s just started cooperating with me enough to allow us to go out. She really hates the car seat and unless she’s been fed and allowed to sit upright for a good while, she will squeal and squirm until I get her out (she cries so hard it scares me sometimes!). 

One thing that always melts my heart, though, is how she is already responding to Knox. Regardless of how grumpy she is, she almost always tolerates him holding her (which he asks to do A LOT). I can see the sibling bond growing so strongly already and it makes me so excited for the future. 

But, regardless of how upset or fussy she can be right now, I try to remember that she is so new to everything in this world, she’s adjusting to things that I take for granted, like breathing air, even. Her cries break my heart and I can’t bear to let them last too long which is why she’s spending most of her time in the sling while I fall in love completely and hopelessly every time she calms down and lets her tiny head rest safely on my chest, tightly secured to my body and we become one again, like we were just a month ago.